Dear Friend

        I wanted to dedicate the first official post of the Friendship and School Column to something meaningful to me. I will make this for my friend.  I will not name this person. I chose to do a letter. It might not mean a lot to you, a fellow Star, but to me it is very important.
       I chose to do a letter. Thank you Sora for giving me this inspiration on your Dear... Instagram posts.

Dear Friend, 
       I haven't written a letter to you like this before. Actually, I haven't written you any letter before. 
      I'm sorry for not being there when you needed me. I guess I was being selfish. I never knew, you never told me, but I should have guessed. I should have acted more Abnegation-like. 
     Sometimes, I feel like our personalities don't match. We don't look from the same viewpoint. I'm generally a characterized with a strong-ness. If it's one thing in life I learned to do, it is to move on. However,  it's not always a good thing. 
     I feel that I left you behind. You haven't learned to let go yet. You are still in a fantasized world. I want to let you stay there as long as possible. But we have to grow up at one point; I think I know too much and grew up so long ago. Because of that, I have such complex thoughts about the world. Wonderland is just a terribly beautiful place.
     Maybe because I left you so long, you start to loose faith in me. So you ran to another one of our good friends. We were so close to each other; we went through ups and downs with smiles and frowns and tears.
     I had and do accept you for who you are. I guess you don't accept me. You look at me with jealousy in your eyes; I pity you for doing so. I am not as perfect as it seems. My calm hides a storm and it's threatening to escape. 
    As I write this to you, tears are flowing. You will never know. I think also don't know the fact that I look back at memories like you do too. I can't just be moving on, you know.
     I know people can't stay in a perfect moment forever. I'm trying to let you know that. I look bad in your eyes for forcing you to understand. I just don't want you too break all at the same time. I hope you can ease the pain by knowing. 
     Please also realize that it's not just you that has trust issues. I do, too. I'm suspicious at heart. I wasn't always like this. 
     If I do loose trust in you some day, try to make me remember. But if your honesty starts to falter, it'd be hard for you to earn than the first time. 
     We have our inside jokes, but you're not here. You're lost in some other time. I'm younger, but I need you to know this.

      I'll always be there from now on.

             Signed,
              Kiku
P.S. You call me your best friend, but turn around and I'm not.